A particular moment in Life seems to come when we suddenly get on a trajectory plotted by living. Somehow, no one knows why really, Life pushes us into distinctive peculiar moods, circumstances unimaginable. The whirl of inner transformation becomes a fact, a non-negotiable.
We, suddenly, must learn to swim relentlessly. We, unexpectedly, must know and master relationships with ourselves and others. We face and then study frustration in its many shapes and forms. Our relationships, thoughts, and emotions become deeply invested with our awareness. Hopefully, eventually, we will learn deep self-care and reasonable - non-co-dependant - loving care for other living beings.
Through this swirl of transformation, we learn a lot and we grow a lot. We discover how to listen deeply to what needs to unfold next. We stop letting the mind dictate what we should or shouldn't do. We discard the "must" and all that it represents; it's a form of freedom when we stop being guided solely by goals of being admired by society, proving to be successful. Instead, we start to set our standards, becoming respected and successful to ourselves, first.
Technically, Psyche is the totality of all human emotional-energetic processes and structures, both conscious and unconscious, involving the body and the mind. I doubt that the transformation of Psyche ever happens purely by chance. The transformation of Psyche seems always seems to be initiated invisibly.
Much as in the beautiful myth of the Psyche, a dramatic twist happens, perhaps amid planetary transitions, karmic dues, the Mystery, the unexpected. Cosmos mysteriously start to dance within and around us to push us to transformation's brinks. Archetypally, this movement often happens through a sacrifice; typically, it's a loss - of a relationship, commodity, ideals, health, plans, standards, else.
Deep inner work is our great turn to the depths of Psyche. Our private response to The Call of Awakening is a genuine phenomenon when the set of cosmic circumstances shaken our ego-mind, our belief system, our story.
People often describe this shattering as waking from a dream, as dissolution of illusions. From my own experiences, I was 16 when it happened to me, I know we often feel as pulled into a dark-night journey, an involuntary traverse to the meanders, jungle, caves, and pitfalls of our Psyche.
Eventually, and hopefully, this becomes a labor of Love. Ultimately, this way, we get very much close to our Soul.
I imagine the universe as a highly organized and structured event. However, this doesn't mean that I, as a mortal human with very limited emotional-cognitive abilities, can come even close to grasping the essence of this "event." Of course, I can't.
There's much incomprehensible in the universe. I like to entertain in this incomprehensible is where chunks of Mystery reside. To me, Mystery covers anything that my mind cannot comprehend and that I cannot put into words, yet it is a glance of the complexity of this life that I can sense, intuit or feel with my whole being.
I believe even the Mystery has a purpose. I think nothing in this space/time happens by chance, and everything has its structure and dynamics, Mystery included. I'm not saying that everything that happens is essential for us; far from it. But what I am saying is, there are laws and order to everything in this universe, from cells to galaxies to the human Psyche and
We're spiritual beings in physical bodies living on the third-dimensional physical plane. There's a life force that animates our physical bodies. This force enters cells at a certain point, and it has a specific role in our lives. We can call it the life force or vital force, the energetic essence of conscious Life itself.
There seems to be a multileveled set of connections between the life force and the ability to shape our human experiences consciously. One of them is, or so it seems, that the more vital force we've available to us, the greater our ability to consciously shape - create - our human experiences.
Like any force, life force has a point of origin, a direction, and a magnitude. We receive life force from the unified field of consciousness (God, the Divine) through our unique divine soul blueprint - which is basically what we then call "soul."
It is essential to understand that we align with our divine soul blueprint through our choices on the third-dimensional - physical level of our experience. This then defines the magnitude of the life force and our ability to shape our human experiences: our choices.
The actual, tangible choices we make determine the magnitude of life force we source from the unified field of consciousness. More life force, more consciousness, more life force.
People often overlook that the choice always takes place at the level of action. When we make a particular choice - when we do something or avoid doing it - this affects our entire divine soul blueprint.
And when we make a choice aligned with our Soul, a slice or a waterfall of vital life force opens up and gives us an influx of consciousness and energy in our lives. Because the soul is naturally vibrationally abundant, the result of a soul-aligned choice is always energetic abundance, which translates into plenty on the level of love, time, health and vitality, money, fulfillment in relationships, etc.
We can always make either fear-based or love-based choices.
Fear-based choices are so-called shadow choices (negative ego-choices, if you will), and these are the ones that interfere with the flow of our life force throughout our being. They often arise from the past, the unhealed trauma. Love-based choices are soul-level choices, and they positively affect our ordinary lives, bringing enoughness and abundance and retroactively affecting our entire divine soul blueprint.
The divine soul blueprint isn't set in stone; it's a living, dynamic event and just as predetermined as, for example, our physical body. It had specific predetermined characteristics, and then there's a massive window of opportunity in which we can consciously influence it through the choices we make in this life.
Deep personal work aka deep inner work
Knowing the essential characteristic of our immortal, divine Soul...
Doing the necessary emotional-energetic work (which is often trauma work) ...
Making soul-level choices...
This combination is a matter of deep inner work - profound healing, and transformational work.
Deep inner work is about unraveling layers upon layers of our conditioned self to understand and live, experience our soulfulness, our divinity.
Deep inner work is a process. The goal of deep inner work is ambitious and straightforward: the integration of Soul, mind, and body. It's a sacred matter of the Soul. Like all matters of the Soul, it's only the experimental, gnostic goal of experiencing our aliveness and uniqueness outside of any predefined, measurable, tangible parameters. Deep inner work is about a mortal human becoming more and more embodied, conscious, and ensouled, full, and expressed in its individual divinity. Deep inner work is basically about reclaiming our personal power.
Deep inner work gives much, but it also demands much. It's very naive to expect a consequence of bliss and to eliminate difficulties and struggles from the equation. Because that's the essence of human transformation: it's labor. It's work. There are no shortcuts and no instant solutions; it's a waste of time to even dream about them. You're likely to be disappointed.
Not sharing this to brag
Years ago, receiving my soul-level healing was a giant-subtle turning point in my spiritual evolution. This healing was, first of all, about giving Tina, raised in a scientific paradigm of logic and reason, complete permission for taking Soul as granted, as a fact, as a force of nature, as non-negotiable, as given. Second of all, it surprisingly led me to the following steps on my private and professional life journey, helping me become genuinely alive, and breaking the oppressive spells of patriarchy, making me "good, but never enough."
It's been a challenging but satisfying inner work and profound transformation that now reflects in my self-esteem, how I create and in how I approach people, what I give and receive in my personal life and at work.
Thanks to soul-level healing, I live with a gentle awareness of my Soul. I know it's everywhere, in my cells, tissues, and body. I also know that with every choice I make - a choice rooted in Love - I'm more and more myself, living and expressing my true essence. I find that particularly fulfilling.
I'm not telling you this to brag about how cool I'm, even though in my way I'm cool, just like you are and all of us are. I'm also not stating that if soul healing helped me, it'd help everyone, and everyone can benefit from it because that's not even close to accurate.
I'm telling you this because I want you to know that if you don't feel well after all the healing work you've done, there's a reason for that. But most of all, I want you to know that there are resources on how you can become fully alive, that's, fully embodied and complete, in this lifetime.
Do you have a deep desire to live as you're, and express yourself to your fullest?
If the answer is yes, please, honor that desire. Start making good choices and get professional help to get on the soul track of your magical sled. Something very soulful will eventually start to grow. The potential for it's already in motion, deep within you and all around you - otherwise, you wouldn't be here reading things, words, and codes about Soul, Psyche, and deep inner work.
Do you feel the movements of truth deep inside you? Listen. And honor and respect the sacredness of your desire. It all starts with a desire.
Keeping the sound of your depths is the most critical, decisive moment in the process of consciously creating your own remarkable life.
The process of consciously creating a sustainable, fulfilling, soulful life requires not only being aware of your Soul and how it operates, but it also comes with some conditions within your Psyche.
This is why many people try to build a conscious life, and yet they struggle very much. This is an unpopular opinion, yet the conscious creation it's a complex affair. It demands a person to have a multiverse of requirements. Like a stable, solid inner witness - the Observer. Good grounding. Fluent connection with one's body, feelings, and emotions. The ability to integrate energetic internal states and thoughts onto a symbolic level. And much more.
All this corresponds to a fairly high degree of energetic self-mastery. And this mastery isn't developed by reading self-help books, watching documentaries, and webinars. It also excludes any dependencies and constraints. It only spreads through dedicated inner work, live and experimental, where you allow "the flow" within you to happen and take you so that you can finally take yourself.
The more you know your psyche, the more you understand your soul, the more fulfilling it becomes, and the transformation, inevitable as it may be, becomes a graceful, fulfilling adventure.
In a nutshell
Deep inner work is a holistic affair. It surpasses a shelf of self-help books, a meditation, lit candle, a tarot spread, and encouraging Instagram infographics that hopefully won't hurt. Deep inner work requires a sincere inventory of our lives and, very, very often, the unpopular change in our lifestyle. We change our lives - not only by observing, sitting on a meditation cushion, making shifts in mindset, endlessly "cleaning up" limiting beliefs but through tangible, meaningful action that reflects our divine, immortal Soul.
Tina Bozic is a mother, wife, skilled practitioner, psychologist and psychotherapist with more than two decades of experience in self-development. She helps women self-actualize at the level of their soul. Her approach to women's issues is process-oriented, relational, holistic, non-pathologizing, neurodiverse, and trauma-informed.